Long time no blog. I've blogged lesser since my university life.began. I've getting more inactive and much more inactive. It started when I have lesser time to blog, and slowly I think that blogging is really unnecessary. So why the hell I'm here today? 

      ... I miss here, suddenly I thought of here, when I have no where to go, under this raining cats and dogs night, accompanied with my grieve, which I don't know where else to release.

            My brain and my heart are congested. Thoughts and feelings stuck due to complicated feeling, like different transportation stuck in traffic jam in peak hours. It didn't happened in a random day. The only reason that made me feel so... complicated, and made me feel the world suddenly turns gray, falling white ashy snow, is... You. 

           You, so far the most influencing person to me.

      ...

           Things always don't flow the direction/the way as we wished. Sometimes we've already know the result for certain decisions and actions, but yet we knowingly engage in those farking decisions and actions. We might work hard for it, try to sustain it, try to overcome it etc. Sometimes we've just 'Never give up' for the wrong reason, tried so hard to sustain the wrong thing.

           "Think twice, for what you've continued."

            Yes, I will think twice. I kind of trust your sense. 

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Sorry if you don't understand this post.

B'cause I don't really want you, my blog reader(s) to know what I'm talking about as well.